Day Four - HURT

Unprecedented times, unpredictable actions, unprocessed hurt. Unspoken feelings, harsh but true words, communication nil.

With a wall as high as the sky and no way to connect there’s an inability to break through. Isolated and alone, with a heavy heart and a hurt soul, days extend long and painful.

A time to reflect and sit in stillness, to feel, to listen. Thoughts and feelings are painful but true.

Hurt, it hurts, a lot.

29 March - 514 coronavirus cases in New Zealand, 63 new cases, 2 in intensive care, 1 death

Day Three - CHOICES

Lockdown is not a choice. The decision has been made for all of New Zealand. However, reaction is a choice.

I choose to see the positive. On a global scale, the world has a break, both the ecosystems and environment, as well as the people.

On a local scale, pace is slowed, allowing time to relax into the new normal and space to use time differently. A reduction in huge daily mental load, thoughts are focussed on big picture and how to adjust and prepare for a changed world. I choose to observe, as though from a third party, my thoughts and feelings as they eb and flow.

I choose to get back to my sense of self and remember what it was that I loved as a kid, what ignited my passion. With renewed clarity, I can feel again and am looking forward to feeling the changes in my soul.

28 March - 451 coronavirus cases in New Zealand, 83 new cases, 2 in intensive care